This house project nightmare continues! My friends came back today to work on the bathroom again and at one point said it would be done today. My heart filled with happiness! I’m pretty sure there were some little birds flying around doing the dishes and butterflies making the bed….it was a magical moment! Now “done” did not mean everything would be back to normal. “Done” meant that there would no longer be a mirror and double sink in my narrow hallway and the cabinet pieces that are littering my bedroom would be back in the bathroom. My little brain took things even farther though! (This happens frequently and gets me in trouble!) In my “mind’s eye” I could picture the toilet being back in place and all of the toiletries etc that are currently stacked in my tub would be back in the cabinet and I could just lay some towels on the floor and basically use my bathroom as normal until Wednesday when they put the new vinyl on the floors. Actually, I even went a step past that and thought I would hook up my washer and dryer long enough to do a few loads of clothes and then take them back out of the room and all would be well with the world! I might even soak in the tub while the clothes are washing! In my mind’s eye the world was about to be a better place!

Then it happened…..I got called back to look at the bathroom. “Do you want the good news first or the bad news?” Nope! None! I can’t! So he had installed the toilet for me which he seemed rather proud of and rightfully so….that was above and beyond what was discussed originally. However, that was followed up with the fact that all the holes that the other idiots left in the walls had to be patched and because they were so bad, it was gonna take 3 applications to patch them before the cabinet and sink could go back!! 😲 That pushed my little fantasy world (which only I was aware of) back DAYS!! DAYS!! ……and then I lost it! I started crying…like a crazy person…crap like ya see happen in movies! The chick gets overwhelmed and cries over stupid crap…yup…that’s what I did!! I had zero control over it! I DESPISE crying! I wish it wasn’t even possible! I wish there was just a button you pushed when things got too overwhelming and a little steam would release and then ya go on with your day without looking like an idiot! Actually I think I’m gonna run that idea by my Dr at my next appt…see if I can get one of those buttons installed!

That wasn’t the end of the story either! Nope…there is more crazy! I had been making plans with some friends to go out to eat together and have some drinks etc. AND we were taking a fun, cool (as cool as a short bus can be) bus together that one of my friends owns! Yay! Fun night out! Been looking forward to this for a while….well….I was so bummed about the bathroom that I could barely even consider getting up and showered and ready to go but I was trying to push myself! I thought if I could just get my butt up and going then I would get out and be laughing with my friends and have a few drinks and have a blast! Then I see a comment in our group text that makes me realize that we probably aren’t going where I thought we were going. (Again my brain just made up something that wasn’t real!) There is one restaurant that makes piña coladas that I LOVE! And they are potent! I was picturing one of those drinks and then me just calming down finally. Well…we were going to another restaurant that makes terrible piña coladas! Great food..:but not piña coladas! (I’m sure there will be a blog dedicated to this but those who do not yet know:…..I am an insanely picky eater and I rarely drink so I guess I’m picky about that too!) No big deal! Right? I mean a shot is a shot….I could just go and have enough shots till I didn’t care what the piña colada tasted like! Great plan…..and then I lost it AGAIN!! I am sitting home crying because we aren’t going to the restaurant I thought we were going to!!! Are you kidding me?? Where is that steam button?? This crap is getting out of hand!! So I don’t go…I mean who wants to plan a fun night out and have someone there crying every time someone speaks?? It was absolutely ridiculous!

Ya know there was a point in my life when I couldn’t cry….I kid you not! It was 2013 as a matter of fact. I remember because my aunt had a pretty bad stroke and I was at the hospital with my grandparents waiting to see what was going on with her. My grandfather’s Alzheimer’s was already pretty bad at the time and my grandmother (who raised me) was devastated…..crying because she didn’t know if her child was going to live or die while her husband was confused about where he was and what was going on. It was a pretty bad scene. This is the same grandmother who usually had me balling if I even suspected that she was going to cry and I was sitting there doing NOTHING! Not one single tear! I even remember explaining to her that I couldn’t cry anymore because I felt like she thought I didn’t care.

Now if someone could please explain to me how I went from not crying during that devastating scene to balling because we’re going to a different Mexican restaurant than I thought….I would love to hear your ideas!

Aren’t y’all glad I decided to have a funny blog? 😂 Oh my goodness….I guess I’m just going with whatever comes up each day so who knows where this is going!