Y’all! Today is the first day in a week and a half that nobody is coming to do any work on my house! I’m not necessarily happy about it….I was supposed to be getting my new floors put in today and it was going to be the end of this nightmare but THEY had to reschedule!! Ugh! So the nightmare continues! (As I write this I remember I have a friend coming after work tonight to finish up a few things but that doesn’t count….I still don’t have to get a shower!) I realize this isn’t a fun rant so we’ll move on….

I was taking my son to school today (I’m not supposed to mention him so we won’t use his name…😉) and as always he is playing HIS music. This is the second kid….I learned a little bit from the first one. They listen to rap! I HATE Rap! Don’t get me wrong….I prefer it to classical or opera but that’s about it! I just don’t understand half of what they say and when I do it makes absolutely no sense to me! It also drives me crazy that half of it is bragging about how much money they have and how valuable their jewelry/cars/etc are! My husband and I told the kids…..if we ever win the lottery, we’re not tellin y’all! EVER! Ya might see and extra vacation or two but that’s it…then when you’re both 18 we’ll just disappear! We may have said this too many times because I’m pretty sure at least one of them thinks we’ve already won the lottery and we’re just not telling him! I also don’t understand these middle class preppy kids relating to the lyrics! Now I do understand liking the beat! I have to give them that…that’s the only thing I understand about it! So back to this morning…..I’m accidentally listening to this song and it says something about Tony Danza! What the what?? I think it said he was dancing on a table or a counter or something! Huh??

Me: Do you know who Tony Danza is?

Kid: No…….Do you know who Tony Danza is?

Me: Yeah…..he was an actor when I was a kid!

Kid: Was he any good?

Me: Sure I guess but I’m not sure he was good enough to be mentioned in a rap song 30 years later!!

Kid: what?

Me: That dude just said something about Tony Danza dancing on a table or something!!

Kid: Oh I never heard him say Tony Danza and I don’t know who that is….

WHY????? Why are we rapping about 80’s actors and why don’t the kids know what we’re rapping about and why do I know more about the song I hate than the kid who wanted to listen to it?? Hey…but I gotta recommend this Young Dumb and Broke song….that one I can get down with! 😂

So I drop the kid at school and turn the radio to my fav 90’s station and New Kids on the Block is playing!! Step by Step! I jam out on the way home and realize it’s about the stupidest song I have ever heard!!!! 😂😂 So I guess I’m just gonna have to rap about Tony Danza and shut up about it!!

I got dis! Tony Danza on the table whoop whoop!

In other news….we had to get a new DVR a while back and apparently somebody “accidentally” forgot to set it up to record This is Us!! 😡 I’m a little technologically challenged so I just recently figured out how to get all the episodes so I can watch them! I’m talkin a whole season people! And y’all are takin about how jack died and I know NOTHING!! It’s painful! So I’m all about catching up on this show and my hubby of course doesn’t love it so I ask (not really expecting him to have an opinion) if he minds if I watch the show. He says, “I really prefer you don’t….I just can’t handle you crying…”

Manny say whaaattt????

OK….we’re gonna do a little side step here! I recently started therapy (y’all are welcome!). I spend a full hour catching up on years of neglected crying once a week! This probably has absolutely nothing to do with my husband….but he just caused himself to be blamed!! Cause I know he can’t handle me crying….the kids can’t either, by the way! So I try really hard not to! But I didn’t think TV shows counted!! Does that count?? I mean I understand ya don’t wanna deal with me crying cause somebody died or because I’m frustrated (such as recent house work), or because I’m disappointed in you etc etc etc…..but when you know darn well that I’m crying over a show that has absolutely nothing to do with you or us or anyone we care about then I think you should be able to eat your food or play your phone games or whatever ya got going on and ignore me crying! I ain’t asking for a hug! I just want Jack to be ok because he’s an awesome husband and dad and I bet he would let his wife watch This is Us if she really wanted to!! OK now that rant is over….back to therapy! (I gave y’all a couple days off so you’re gonna have to let me catch up!)

My “Homework” for therapy the first week was to write a letter to my mom! (Who is no longer living in case ya didn’t know) The reason behind this assignment is that I may have just a tad of resentment towards her for ruining my life and killing my uncle! I mean just a twinge of anger there! Nothing too major….. Well I’m approaching session 3 of therapy and I haven’t written this letter! As y’all can see, I don’t really have a problem with writing….nope…that’s not the issue here. A small part of the issue is that I haven’t had a day alone since the assignment….at least not until today and I have big plans for today!! (THIS IS US!) So here in lies the problem…..she scares the hell out of me!! I mean I feel like if I wasn’t scared to tell her what I think then I woulda told her while she was alive!! I’m assuming the theory is that since she’s gone then it’s safe for me to say what I want but I think this therapist is dead wrong!! I just started thinking about some of the things I would say last night and the TV started changing channels by itself!! I mean…..I don’t think I wanna mess with her! Typing this is probably a bad idea! And exactly how does that help me with her cause there’s plenty of other people I’d like to say a few things to also!! Is that gonna be my coping mechanism? Like….you just wait…..I’m gonna outlive you and then write you a letter and tell you exactly what I think!! You just wait and see!! I’m just not sure how therapeutic that is….. I guess we’ll find out! If y’all hear about some chick in the south dying suspiciously then we’ll know the letter was a bad idea!

OK y’all….I’ve got to watch an entire season of This is Us before my husband gets off work so that’s the end of my rant for today! Y’all have a magical day!!